Yeah, at least that’s how I feel sometimes. I feel like there are so many stories, so much happening around, there are a lot more themes and topics I can write on, experiment with, and when I sit down to write, I feel like I have nothing to write. But I do know that it’s not true. My feelings are not the fact.
After all, this is my blog, my space, and I can think, write, scribble, and publish about anything and everything under the sun. Right?
I can write about my early mornings, my simple yet very fulfilling morning routine, my night time routine, the books I am reading, the articles I read, the shows I watch, my observations, the things I like and don’t like, about my childhood memories, about my hostel days, about childhood friendships, about my teenage years, about my college days, about my experiences in delhi, about the changes I see that weren’t that visible a decade ago, about finding life beautiful and meaningful at its most simple things, about aspirations, about goals, about inner growth journey, about many, many, many, many, and really many things. And I am happy that I can.
Just a small temporary problem here. Sometimes when I sit in front of my laptop, I feel my inspiration, ideas, creativity, and then very soon, self-discipline kind of takes a day or two off. Yeah, sometimes I really feel it happens.
It’s fine.
Its temporaray. We will get along with each other very well.
Some days, like today, I feel a bit clueless. I mean, I have my tasks to do. My to-do task list for the next 10 days is kept in front of me. And I know the importance of this work very well.
I have to write, prepare, and schedule a few – actually a lot of pieces for my blog, write a few medium articles, prepare a good amount of LinkedIn pieces, and all of this has to be completed on time. All of the writing, editing, proofreading, scheduling, publishing – everything is part of my plan to make my writing, my stories, my articles more visible online to create a valuable and reliable personal brand for myself in the long run.
And this bigger picture and purpose make it even more important for me to show up. But I feel that “no two days will ever be the same” is actually a reminder for me. You know, I created 9 blog post pieces and 1 LinkedIn post – a total of 10 stories just the day before yesterday. And I can’t tell you how amazing I felt. I gave myself the freedom to just write the stories that come to my mind for the blog you are reading now, and boom! I happily, very happily, wrote nine stories in a single day – within 8 hours. The drafts have been saved, and I am editing and publishing them with each coming day.
But yesterday, I didn’t feel that energy. And the maximum I managed to do was to edit two drafts and publish them. And, I am fine with it. I still have the next ten days to complete my tasks, and it’s fine.
But today, oh god! Today, I have opened my laptop at 3:30 pm – sooooooooo late! And that too, after convincing myself enough that there’s no need to make it perfect, just show up! And that is what I am doing right now. Just showing up.
And if you will get to know that this particular writing is the third one in my effort to show up today, and I have already scribbled and saved two drafts, then maybe you will understand the power of showing up. At least I am convinced by the power of just showing up. Good work, better work, best work, excellent work, extraordinary performance – everything will come, once you make it a point to show up. Show up unprepared. Show up with confusion. Show up with half-baked stories. Show up with a clueless feeling you have with you since morning. Just show up.
Maybe you were clueless because some days, life decides to make you show up first and let the cluelessness fade away in the light of the day. Maybe. Who knows!
That’s why I think, some days, it’s ok to feel a bit clueless. I think our cluelessness comes to softly nudge us towards something better. And for me, it was to show up. It was, for me, to open my laptop and write six pieces – six personal stories/ blog pieces/ blog posts without too much thinking, and see, it’s been 1 hour and 20 minutes, and I am already about to finish my third story.
Yeah, only drafts, not the edited, proofread, polished one. Just drafts. And that works.
Taking small steps every day to build the life, career, finances, and everything of your dreams sometimes may also feel like this. Just remember, you are only feeling clueless. You are not clueless. Go to your why. Go to your what. And figure out your how for today. You can do it. I believe in you.
Show up happily. Show up peacefully. Show up cluelessly. That’s okay. Just show up!
Sometimes, when you can hear many things at once in your mind, it’s time to free up your mental space. Free it up.
Take your diary, open your notes app, or go to your blog – wherever you feel safe, and just start scribbling whatever is bothering you. Start scribbling whatever is not making any sense to you. Just start, and it will do its job.
You don’t have to explain anything to anyone if you don’t want to; you just need to see what’s going on inside your head. That’s it. That’s the whole point. And you know what, you can do it.
No matter what the world says 1000s of times every day to you, listen to me carefully. Just shut up and listen to me. You are capable of sitting alone with yourself. You are capable enough to listen and talk to yourself without hating an inch of your existence. You can listen to yourself, talk to yourself, solve your problems, take one step at a time, and move ahead in your life with a heart full of gratitude, a mind full of peace, and days full of happiness in your life.
Today, just sit. Just sit and write. Write your heart out. No order, no structure, no headlines, and no paragraphs. Write your story without any edits. Talk to yourself without any filters. And then, see the magic! You are born to live that magic. Own it.
Write whatever bothers you. Write whatever uplifts you. Write whatever makes you cry. Write about the things that make you smile. Write to imagine your future. Write to come to terms with your past. Write so that your present becomes more beautiful. Write so your life can be peaceful. Just write.
Write for yourself. Write to yourself. Write. You will feel good. And that’s the whole point.
I know you are writing a lot. I know you are working a lot. You are thinking, ideating, brainstorming, discussing ideas, themes, and topics. You are researching very well for your case studies. You are refining, editing, and proofreading each and every LinkedIn post of yours, your articles, blogs, and that email newsletter – everything is being meticulously checked at least five times before anyone else’s approval.
You are reading, browsing, scrolling, attending meetings, editing drafts, making new drafts, planning content, and learning from all the available sources you can, hoping it will boost your growth. And you are growing as well.
Actually, you have grown. You have learnt a lot. You have become much better in your work. Your writing has become versatile. You can write for the CEOs, CxOs, founders, billionaires, and businesses across the industries without compromising the quality. And that’s excellent. Kudos to you!
I knew you would do this. I knew you would achieve all the professional milestones, all the financial growth and success you had dreamt of. And see, you did it.
But I need to talk to you. I am seeing that you have stopped doing something. In this business of writing copies, telling stories, building perception, branding, and business development, though you have written a lot, you have come far from writing itself.
Do you see what I am trying to say? Can’t you see this? Isn’t it bothering you? I mean, it’s great, and it’s really awesome that you have built the fabulous financial security by doing something you love to do. It’s truly a blessing. And I am so, so, so happy for you.
But I am missing my friend who used to write for herself — just for herself. No personal branding, no thought leadership, no brand integration, no business collaborations, no client work, no agency work, no premium global clients’ work, no emails, no pitches, no proposals, nothing of these sorts.
I know my friend, each of these things is very important. I get that. But, I just want to remind you that you also need you. Talk to yourself. Talk to your friends. Talk to us. Talk to your diary. Or, just talk to your forgotten blog you once launched with childlike curiosity and eyes full of dreams.
Those dreams need you too. You need yourself. You need to write for yourself. You need to write to yourself.
Srishti Kumari 