Srishti Kumari

Tag: gratitude

  • Health Is A Privilege

    And sometimes I feel it

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    Health, especially good health when you are physically, mentally, and emotionally sound and strong, is a privilege we take for granted every day.

    My hospital visits and frequent surprising ailments in the recent past have made me aware of this even more. Right now, it’s 4:35 am in the morning, I am sitting in front of my laptop, and typing this piece for my blog happily and peacefully after having a deep and restorative sleep at night. And I am happily doing this. But this wasn’t the case just a few days back.

    Almost two to three weeks back, I had an excruciating nerve and back pain in my body, which led me to a very bad physical and emotional space. Things feel very heavy and bad when you can’t move any part of your body without crying in pain. A lot of pain!

    Luckily, I have Abhi(my hubby, my better half, and my partner). He carefully, and with a lot of patience (a lot of patience!), took me to the hospital, and we immediately started the medications. Thankfully, painkillers started working well, and I got the immediate, much-needed relief I needed that time. Medicines are still continuing. And precautions have to be taken in everyday life to avoid such kind of pain. I am mindful of the situation more now.

    In the initial 2-3 days of medication, I used to sleep a lot during the day because of heavy doses, and any physical movement was also not very easy due to weakness. Though I still feel weak sometimes. And I started hating the fact that I was only lying, sleeping, and sleeping all day.

    In times like these, you start to see health very differently. Suddenly, even walking comfortably for an hour or so feels like a big privilege. Sleeping and waking up on time feels like an impractical and highly privileged thing. And then in the recovery process, you start to respect your body, your health, and your circumstances, which ensures that you get this privilege as a basic everyday need in your life. Many people don’t get it for years.

    Even right now, when I remember my condition two to three weeks back, sitting in my study and writing this blog comfortably, feels very different. It feels like a blessing. And I know deep down that it is a blessing. The priceless one indeed!

    May divine bless you with a very good physical, mental, emotional, spiritual, cognitive, financial, and social health and well-being.

    Stay healthy, my friends.

    Take care.

  • Early Mornings Are Blessings

    And I am deeply grateful for them.

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    Early mornings. The peaceful, loving, caring, beautiful, warm, comfortable, and relaxed early mornings after a night of deep sleep and rest are among the most priceless blessings in the world. And I am genuinely, deeply, very, very grateful for such early mornings in my life. Nothing can be more beautiful than that.

    Nothing!

    The early morning hours, the quiet home, the calm vibes, you wake up with a smile, you feel thankful to divine, get up for the wonderful day ahead, listen to the chirping of birds outside, the balcony view right in front of you full of trees, grass, shrubs, herbs, plants, and flowers of bright colours, dewy mustard fields, and a vast area of farmland.

    Everything seems dark because the sun hasn’t come up here. And then you gaze at the sky, watching it transition from darkness to light, to pinkish red, yellowish, as the sun comes up in full red, and slowly, slowly it moves up up and up. And its colour changes from red to light red, to orange, to shiny bright yellow.

    And you sit on your balcony to soak all that in. To feel the morning breeze, the early morning shine, everything!

    For me, that is a blessing. And I am more than grateful for this.

    Happy morning.

    Happy living.

  • Hey Past

    Thanks for being in the past

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    Past, thanks. Thank you so much for being in the past. Although you come to me. You come to my mind a lot. Many times, with many unpleasant memories from your shelf, but I am still relieved that you are my past now.

    Yes, the memories stay. The unpleasant ones don’t go easily. The pain, the helplessness, the cries, the judgements, the violence, the abuse, the hypocritical behaviour, the dual standards – they leave a scar. They probably have left a scar on my inner child, and they don’t leave the mindspace completely.

    But I feel there is a good thing. I think you had come so early with so many unpleasant things only to make me aware of the truth, the life, and myself so early.

    Maybe!

    You taught me so many things. That’s true! I just wish I had seen and felt more love also during those times. I am just saying. I wish!

    It’s fine. Whatever happened, happened! You know, you taught me a very important thing. The past is in the past, and will be in the past, no matter how many times I feel the unwanted memories in my present. I can always choose to remind myself that it was in the past, and I am in the present. Always.

    I am in my present, and I can choose my future. Always! Isn’t it liberating?

    The relationship you have for the first twenty to thirty years of your life with your parents, your siblings, your friends, relatives, cousins, and with yourself impacts a lot your mindset and behaviour towards almost everything in life. At somepoint, you have to step up and decide to rethink, renew, and restart your relationship with your life, with the values that deeply satisfy your soul.

    You can’t let the ugliness of the past decades take away all the shine, beauty, life, and magic from the best years of your life that are yet to come.

    Maybe it was the way of almighty to make me come closer to him. Maybe! Maybe the past was just a small bittersweet part of the plan. Maybe!

    Whatever it was, and whatever it is, I am glad it was my past; it was in the past. My present is holding, protecting, guiding, and inspiring me so beautifully that sometimes I think, if this had to come, then I have no more complaints about my past.

    Listen past, you were there to make me see, teach, and understand many things so clearly that my present and future self will always thank you for. I respect the years of learning you passed on to me.

    Thanks. Thanks for being my past. Thanks for happening and staying in the past.

    Today, my present understands you.

    Thank you.